Its now 4:30 in the morning, and Martin will be at mine to take me to the airport train in two and a half hours, im seriously fatigued, but im hoping to be able to sleep on the plane. Hopefully then I will not be struck so harshly by the jetlag. Im very spontanious, and the seriousness of what i am about to undertake has made its marks on me tonight. Its going to be very different to the life that i am used to, no facebook, series, tv, msn, mobile or peppe's pizza. I cant dance, and i hate doing it because i feel foolish, salsa lessons are included in one of the excursions. I can be very shy, and i dont speak Spanish. I have a serious fobia for insects and im going to the Amazon forest. But thats not whats bedaziling and scary about going, the thing that scares me is the fact that i dont know what to expect, i have watched so many programes and read a fair deal about the places where we are going. But its just too different to comprehend. I also fear this trip will make me more mature, more of a man and make me more able to stand on my own feet, who wants to loose the protection and safety youth brings? Im sure there are many a butterfly who has flown into a cobweb and thought; "Shit, why dident i just stay in my coocoon?" I think this is abit like how young Irish boys felt when getting on potato shipments to the US at the start of the 20th century.
The unknown and incomprahendable is scary. But its clear its the right thing to do.
Where would we be if throughout history, our greatest minds had feared that which they could not confirm? Embrace the unknown with caution, but not with fear."
-Karyn Somerfield
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OJ, you write very creatively, it was a pure joy reading your post. I particularly enjoyed the part about going to the Amazon forest despite your fobia. I hope it all goes very, very well for you, but I certainly must object to one point made by you, my friend.
That is, the part about you maturing as a result of this endeavour. For the love of Christ, Money, You, Me, our friends and all else that is holy, I beg for this not to happen. :)
Embrace it.
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